If you have ever had to learn a musical instrument, one you wanted to learn, you might recognise that moment of clarity when you have put the basics behind you and feel empowered, that moment when you have climbed the technique slope and internalised all that is required to play competently.
With all of the potential to play anything - there are only 12 notes after all; you see yourself setting new standards and composing groundbreaking material until the day you meet a natural talent; one who makes you want to cut off your fingers and drop your beloved noise machine off at the local charity shop - or better; crush/burn it in a fit of self inadequacy and contempt for this cruel world.
Well in a rather clumsy metaphor for blogging, that's where I find myself...
I arose this morning filled with the joys of a bright Edinburgh autumnal day and set to writing that one blog entry that would salve my tortured raging soul - encapsulate the frustration I feel with all that is wrong in this fucked up existence and make the rest of the bloggy-sphere sit up and take notice. And then I realised i'd been soundly beaten into last place, blog ranking 9 to the power of a googleplex - so in the hope of some self aggrandisement - and looking for their talent to rub off on me, here are some examples of why I feel like an amateur:
A Very British Dude tackles a very unlikely subject for him, and despite my feminist liberal anger bubbling just under the surface I think he got it right by god.
The charmingly monikered Pig Dog Fucker tackles a subject close to my heart, freedom of speech, using the thorniest of examples on the awesome Devil's Kitchen - a blog I hope to photocopy one day, 'cos that's the closest i'll ever get.
Marina Hyde, the MSM whore I can't ignore (perhaps I should take up poetry?), takes the wind out of the Brown Obama snub story that has tiresomely dominated the media this week in her own style - M&Ms and Diptyque candles???
Jeff over at SNP-Tactical voting gets all in-depth and analytical on the Irish vote on the Treaty of Lisbon - the result? A triumph of balanced reportage which concludes in a call for real Eurpoean debate and democracy - huzzah!
One of the things I love about blogging is how often I gain an insight to a subject and learn something from other bloggers; often individuals, who on the surface of it, hold opinions and beliefs that would have been an anathema to me in the past - you know, the kind of people you ask to "wait right there" whilst you go inside and load your shotgun. One such is JuliaM over at Ambush Predator; you know what? She talks a lot of sense that woman does - read and weep! I did, oh yeah I laughed and flamed too - you won't see it coming...
Finally peace to all the bloggers out there and thank you for adding to the richness of what my favourite ex-pat Tom Paine's post referred to yesterday as "citizen journalism" - long may it prosper.
Now where can I get my laptop crushed?